my heart hurts. i already miss you. why must i fall madly in love? this simply isnt fair to me. i’ve never been so in love its disgusting. i feel dead without you. but i need to stay strong. because i couldnt image being with anybody but you. i miss your face. we  were working things out and cuddling last night.  but the positive thing is it cant be forever. i dont even wanna think about it. im scared and lost without you.i hope you get better.

i had this best friend of five fucking years

now its all gone. just like that. but the sad part is i dont want him in my life really. we fought over him picking drugs over hanging out with me. might seem petty but its ignorant. what really got to me was that he didnt care that it hurt my feelings. he got so defensive he didnt ccare that he made me cry the night before because i was so excited to see him but he wanted to do shrooms. i dont miss him because all i can think about is promising my mom at her funeral that he would be there for me and he isnt. He doesnt care , and thats what makes me not care. i never cared about the drugs, what i cared about is what they made him do and how they make him think.